Beam

When I went on my Kairos retreat my senior year of High School, I received letters of affirmation from people who loved me. The one that made me sob then and still echoes into my soul are the words from my Beloved Mother. My nickname has always been Bean..Jean Bean...String Bean...Beaner Bop...and many other variations of this lovely gassy substance.

The part of my mom's letter that sunk in was when she wrote "I should've named you Beam instead of Bean because you shine so bright!" This truth that my mom planted in me before I had the courage to believe it or the self-love to receive it, echoes like a lullabye in my soul. It whispers "Girl, you shine!" when I feel like a failure. It sparkles deep within me and invites my soul to dance. To bask in the light that is so obviously there. To embrace what is. To accept Truth at face value. To receive and be set free. Why is it so hard to do?

Jesus states "You are the light of the world!" Who me? Yes YOU! His message is for YOU. In fact if YOU were the only person left on planet Earth, He would have come and died just for YOU! He loves YOU that much! Drink it in, bask in it...SHINE ON!